So it is now March. March is my birthday month. I turn 25 this year. I know, it seems so young (or old, depending on who you are). I, on the other hand, feel as if every year I get younger. Every year I begin to see how little I know of this vast world we call home. I begin to see how small I am, how large God is, and how many questions are never answered in life.
So I feel younger than I did at 16 or 5. :)
Yet I was thinking about March and what I wanted to write about on this blog. And I’ve decided since it’s my birthday month, I’m going to write about writing.
What, you say? Well, here’s the reason. You see, I write on here a lot. Mainly essays and such. But there is SO much more to my writing than the nonfiction you see posted on here. The essays and the devotionals and the book club summaries (not that these are bad at all!) are only a small fraction of my writing world.
I am a creative being. I create things with my writing. I’ve written poetry for years. No, not usually the rhyming kind. The free verse kind. I also write fiction. I’ve been writing a fantasy trilogy since I was 15. Yes, you did the math right. It’s been TEN YEARS since I started writing it. And it’s just now coming together beautifully.
But all that being said…I don’t put my creative writing up here. No poetry. No fiction. I just don’t talk about it.
I wonder why this is?
Well, in March of my 25th year…I want to begin sharing those things.
And you know what? It’s kind of scary to do that.
To me, creative writing isn’t the nice, polished essays I put on here (although I love these, too). Those are edited and controlled. I let you in when I feel like I am at my most stable (I hear you laughing. Just shut it and be polite. I am a very stable person).
When I write creatively, I am bearing my soul. When I write my poetry, I am feeling emotions with all the intensity of the moment. When I write my stories, I am living in another world, my heart is beating as my characters’ hearts would beat. Sometimes, it’s beautiful. Sometimes, it’s brutal. It’s always honest and raw.
Creativity can’t be controlled.
And so…maybe I don’t want to put these things up. That would reveal another part of me.
Yet I just posted about how I needed to write what scares me a little.
So here we go…
For my Birthday Month of March, then…
On Tuesdays, I think I’ll post poetry.
On Thursdays, I will be writing essay-type pieces on creative writing/fiction/etc.
And maybe…maybe at the end of March, I’ll share a fiction piece with you.
We’ll see how it all goes.